Update on Ethan

So my sweet sweet boy.... Lots of people have been asking me how he's doing now. We were doing so great up til about a week ago. He actually had been sleeping 715pm - 730am straight, every night... even when Jackson went through this weird waking up spell - but he was sleeping so soundly every night. He was being swaddled every night and doing great. Well, he just suddenly started waking up many many times during the night. I looked back in Jackson's journal of his first year and at the exact same time, Jackson went through this exact same thing!!! What the heck!? Now I have the 4 month blues!!!!!! Jackson's lasted about 2-3 weeks, so hopefully Ethan's doesn't last that long. I tried unswaddling him and last night I caved in and swaddled him again. I'm just so tired! Ethan hasn't been eating much in the last week either - back to the old routine of arching his back and crying through his bottle. Barely getting 19 oz in a day - where we were up to 25-26oz/day.... but I have to fight for those 19 oz! I didn't used to have to do that! :( He has also been spitting up a LOT (as you can see above) - sometimes in the middle of the night. I absolutely HATE him sleeping on his back. He usually will start out w/ struggling to get that swaddle off. Then, that struggle leads to a cry. The cry leads to a cough. The cough leads to a gag. The gag leads to a huge throw up everywhere. The throw up shoots up his nose and throat into his ears and head.... which leads to more congestion in his head and that leads to more coughing... It's a vicious cycle that I cannot control and makes me nuts. I had Jackson on his belly right before he turned 4 mos old. I would do that again but Ethan FREAKS when he is on his belly. So that's why we tried unswaddling - to try to keep him from struggling... but he's a baby, so when he isn't swaddled, he jerks when he is falling asleep... when he jerks and jars, he fully wakes himself up.... and keep in mind, when he does that, I can't let him cry himself to sleep unless I want to let him puke all over himself. Mad craziness. Anyway, I know it's going to get better and very soon. :) He will soon be able to roll around on his own and grab his paci and replace... etc. In the meantime, I'm going to cherish my sweet baby boy. I know it's not his fault that he has reflux. I never thought I could love another child as much as I love Jackson, but God just finds a way to allow your heart to expand for them. I cannot imagine my life without Ethan and he is just the sweetest baby ever!! I feel SOOOOO blessed to be his mommy!